I don't care what you think!

Tonight I tried to do more than mess about on Facebook, so as well as watching 'One Born Every Minute' I turned my attention to a cross stitch kit I have. 'Oh My God...' lots of people will probably say, 'you're 28 not 68'.


Well I don't care! I actually enjoy it, it's more productive than god damn Farmville, and it focusses my attention - I have severe snacking issues and when I'm stitching I find the night flies by without me having raided the fridge. 


Also this cross stitch has meaning to me.. I got it aged 16 as part of some 'craft club' you used to get all the times in magazines... there were book ones too. You bought 3 or 4 items at 99p or not much more, then you had to buy 3 or 4 full price items in the following 12 months. Well one of my items was a cross stitch kit called Calendar Bears. My nanna got the same one - she completed it in a short space of time and it hung by her front door for many years. She sadly died last September so now it feels appropriate and right to dig mine out and finish it off.


Anyway back to the stitching, here's where I am now:

Indecisiveness

I am terrible for being influenced by people, TV and the like. I'll see someone on TV doing a job and want to do it (for about 1 day, then change my mind). I'll hear about a friend having a baby and I'll want a baby (for about 12 hours, then change my mind!!) 


Relationship aside, as I am incredibly happy in that department, I have no idea what I want to do. I will make a decision then a few weeks (or days!) later will think that it's not a good idea and something else will be better. Really, I want to do several things all at once but that's generally impossible.


I can write a list of pros and cons but then there's 'If this' and 'but that' endlessly whirring in my mind.... If anyone has any ideas about how to resolve this feel free to comment!


I think we have too much choice in the Western world.... 

Productivity and Positivity

After my 'woe is me' post on Thursday I woke up on Friday feeling better than I have done in about two months and just thought RIGHT THEN!! So this post title has two very important words in it.


I have just spent my weekend sans boyfriend (booooo), so decided I should do some of those things that needed doing around 6 months ago. I bought buttons for my coat, got it dry cleaned (£11.75, how expensive!), watched a few episodes of Planet Earth on DVD, and managed to make a couple of bracelets! Not sure what to do with them yet though. 

Feeling rather pleased with myself, I then proceeded to clean both fridges out, cleared them of mouldy foodstuffs then settled down for a bit of East Africa holiday browsing. Success!

On Sunday the sun was shining but my head convinced me I deserved a day of doing nothing, and I spent it doing silly things like browsing eBay for things I am not intending to buy, and planting strawberries on Farmville and ridiculous stuff like that. By 3pm I was kicking myself for not having taken a book to a park somewhere (or something, maybe it was still too cold for that!) and got rid of a little guilt by doing a little more work on my Forever Angels scrapbook and peeling enough potatoes and carrots to feed the street. 

Anyway today I was back at work and, still in awe of how well I feel, I had a really good day, I was full of enthusiasm with the kids and came home to clean my room, sew buttons on said dry cleaned coat and watch The Secret Millionaire.

I find this programme amazing. I am in awe of people who can watch this type of thing then carry on with their lives, as I can't. I sit and think about it in minute detail... anyway tonights episode kind of summed up why Productivity and Positivity is important. You never know what is round the corner.

Evening All!

There is nothing special about March 4th. December 27th, December 9th, April 17th.. maybe! But there is nothing special at all about today that prompted me to create this blog.

In fact I am having a terrible day which has involved calling in sick thanks to ugly antibiotics and generally feeling the need to wallow in self pity.

What is it about March that makes me sick? 5 years in a row I have called in sick in March!

Anyway, this I think is a great way of recording what's going on in my life, whether you care to read or not... I will read it! And every post will have reference to sparkle, Swahili or stress (though ideally not a lot of stress!!)

xx